Can you believe it was a decade ago that Holly Madison first skyrocketed to household name status thanks to a little reality show on E! called 'The Girls Next Door'? She spent five years filming the show, which supposedly gave fans a look at life inside the Playboy Mansion. At the time, Madison's life as Hugh Hefner's main girlfriend seemed pretty amazing, but **w thanks to a new Tell-All book, we're learning that it was actually a lot of ***** and mirrors. Madison's Book 'Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny,' is scheduled to hit bookstores this June and, according to the press release by HarperCollins, "Life inside the **torious mansion wasn't a dream at all -- and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide."